It’s in our nature to always feel like we’re not doing enough and that we should keep going. For many, when they achieve their goals, the satisfaction that comes with it only lasts for a few seconds, and then they’re back to feeling like they’re not good enough. If you’re reading this, take a second to remind yourself how far you’ve come. Maybe you finished high school and you’re entering the next phase of your life; maybe you just finished an internship. Just the fact that you’re here, and you’re reading this, means that you’ve definitely passed some sort of challenge in your life, and you’ve surpassed it. You’ve overcome that challenge in your life, no matter how big or small, and that alone means you’ve accomplished something.
Next week, I’m starting school, and as I was thinking of what to write for this month’s chapter, I realized that summer is almost over and, while I’ve had so many good moments, I’ve also encountered a lot of challenges. But I’m here, and I’ve overcome these challenges and for that, I’m going to take a moment right now to be proud of myself. We all need to realize that the only source of fulfillment is ourselves; we can’t expect people to keep on praising us for things we’ve accomplished. So as you go on to whatever phase is next in your life, continuously remind yourself that you’ve come so far along. Don’t keep beating yourself up for small incidents, because at the end of the day, as cliche as it sounds, everything happens for a reason. You are reading this right now for a reason. Wherever you’ll be in one year is going to happen for a reason. So remind yourself that YOU are enough! “Self-acknowledgement can have the power of making us feel good, strong, at peace, independent, self-confident, and empowered.”
As I mentioned in the first “chapter,” being 17 means being the best version of myself. And in order to reach that, I will fall down a lot, but I will learn from those moments and allow myself to be a better person. This month, I learnt a very important lesson about thinking positively. And although that sounds like such a generic thing to talk about, I have genuinely learnt how important it is to be a “glass half full” person. My family always tells me that I have to be more positive and change the way I look at things, and I honestly didn’t understand why they kept emphasizing on that idea. Until I realized that literally everything in life will come out of positivity. For a while I used to tell myself that “I am not doing anything good with my life” or “I’m not good enough.” Those few words genuinely turn my day around, and rather than accomplishing something, I would be in the worst mood ever. My outlook on everything in life was so negative. Things like telling myself I’m not good enough or thinking that what I do isn’t good enough, has always been at the back of my mind and has been subconsciously affecting me in every way. And as a result of that, I’ve realized that nothing that I wanted to achieve has been happening. Because my mindset was so wrong, and the world sensed it. I wasn’t manifesting correctly, and the energy I was giving was the energy I was receiving. But instead, if I were to spread positive energy into the world, I now know that I will receive that same energy, whether that’s something that I want, or just the way I feel. If I’m spreading positive energy, I know that I’ll not only be a happier person, but I’ll be able to obtain the things I’ve dreamt of having. It all starts with one simple step — positivity — and everything else falls into place. And I might not be the most positive person at the moment, but knowing that I have the WILL to be a more positive person will slowly change the way I look at life, and the way life looks at me. And how does one become more positive? It’s the little things in life. Look at the way you’re dealing with everything, even the little things. Instead of getting mad that you got the wrong shoe size, remind yourself that this is something that can be fixed; you can simply exchange it. If you get a bad grade on your math test, instead of getting mad, allow that bad grade to be your motivation to work even harder for the next test. It’s genuinely these little things in life that will allow you to not only be happier, but reach success. Because with negativity comes the need to give up, but with positivity comes hard work and perseverance. It truly is the first step that everyone needs to take to achieve anything in life.
17 years old. What does it mean to be 17 years old? I feel like going from 16 to 17 is a huge step, as though this is the year where I take a bigger step into maturity, responsibility, and independence. This is the year where I begin to stray away from naiveté. 17 means being the best version of myself. 17 means reflecting back on who I am as a person and polishing a few parts of myself so that I am the happiest, most confident, and most fulfilled version of myself.
I read something today, that says in Japan, broken objects are often repaired with GOLD. The flaw is seen as a unique piece of the object’s history, which adds to its beauty. For the past 17 years of my life, I’ve had a lot of broken pieces, but I’ve had time to repair them. The moments in which I accidentally fall down are the moments I learn from. These are the moments that help me better myself and become the person I am today, and the person I want to be.
For a while now, I’ve felt as though I am ashamed of who I am. I am so self conscious, and I am always apologizing for things that I am not in control of. I feel weak, and I’ve got to the point where I’ve realized that I am becoming weaker. And although it will take time for me to repair that aspect of myself, the gold is going to look amazing. When I talk to someone, I’m always afraid that I sound “weird” or “boring”, and I try to read their facial expressions to make sure that I am saying what THEY want me to say. I’m caring about other people’s opinions too much, and it’s getting to me. This is not the type of person I want to be. If anything, I want to be the exact opposite. I know myself, and I know how much potential I have, but for the longest time I didn’t realize that. But it’s time for me to stop that, and love myself.
To me, 17 means being unapologetically myself. 17 means being confident and doing what I love and not caring about what people will think; as long as I am happy, that is what matters. As long as I’m feeling fulfilled, I am in the best state I could possibly be. 17 is the year where I can be the best version of myself, and I don’t want it to go to waste because I’m too scared of what people will think of me.
And I think that’s an important lesson for everyone. No matter how old you are, reflect back and work to improve yourself. Because by improving yourself, you are taking a step forward in every aspect of your life. When your content with yourself, everything else will fall into place
So it was my 16th birthday a couple of weeks ago, and we finished school about a month ago. A year has ended, and that got me thinking. If I were to do it all again, what would I have done differently? I feel like in the beginning of my sophomore year, and in the beginning of my journey as a 15 year old, I had soooo many different expectations. A while ago, when I would look back at how I handled this year, I would be somewhat disappointed, as though I didn't complete as much as I should've. I didn't work as much as I felt like I could've in school, I didn't make as many friends, I didn't stay healthy nor did I stay as religious as I wanted to be. I felt like I wasn't the best me I could've been. But honestly, writing this right now has helped me come to the realization that everything I thought I was going to be/ everything I wanted to do are built up on e x p e c t a t i o n s, meaning it isn't the reality. I set too many high expectations that are way easier said than done, I set them thinking it's easy to accomplish those goals, when in reality it's a process. Although I used to think that I didn't meet all the expectations, looking back it now, I think I did as much as I was capable of doing and I should be proud of that. I should look at the things that I achieved instead of what I wasn't able to achieve. I went on TV, I had a book launch, I was recognized by His Majesty the King, I wrote a BOOK, I completed my first AP class, I DID make new friends,,, and I was frequently happy. Being happy was definitely a goal that I didn't know I needed to achieve. The year before, I was constantly sad, so being happy this year is actually one of the best things I've achieved this year. So ya, before, I might have wanted to do things differently , but I think that if I had the chance to do it all again, I would do it the same, because I did as much as I was capable of doing. I can't do more because, although I don't see it sometimes, I worked the hardest I possibly could have, and I should be proud of that. So I am not only saying this for myself, but for all of you. Set expectations that you KNOW you are capable of achieving. Dream big, but make sure you KNOW that you can work hard enough to make those dreams happen. If you think it's hard to make your dreams come true, come up with steps to help you achieve that goal. Work hard and step out of your comfort zone, but don't tire yourself to the point where it's too much, and you're basically destroying your mental health. We are all capable of so much, and yes, we can achieve anything we want to, but you also need to be real and cut yourself some slack, and don't forget to be proud of every little good thing that you do, because that is what's going to help you achieve your realistic goals. Put yourself and your mentality first, and your dreams can come second! It isn't easy to do everything I just said, I'm still learning to put myself first. I constantly feel disappointed in myself because I feel like I didn't do as much as I could've/ I did something wrong. But I'm going to learn not to beat myself up over the littlest things, because I KNOW that that is not the way to achieve your goals :)))
Yesterday, I got the chance to go on Roya (a TV channel in Jordan - for those of you who don’t know). I was interviewed on the show “Dunya ya Dunya” and I talked about my book and blog. This experience was nerve wracking, but absolutely amazing and I wouldn’t have done it any differently. It also gave me so much hope and inspiration for the future and Im so excited for what’s coming. Doing something like this at a young age just makes me realize how much a person can do, no matter how old they are. It also teaches me that there’s no limit or boundary; I can do whatever I want if I work and dream hard enough. I want each and everyone of you to learn from this experience of mine because it doesn’t only benefit me, it benefits everyone. There’s so much you can do in the world, so start now because no matter what, you will always reach your goals if you try hard enough. You are capable of anything and everything. My journey has been absolutely INSANE and going on Roya is kind of like a checkpoint in this journey📍 to many more ⭐️
So I have recently finished freshmen year (9th grade, AKA the first year of high school) and I can not tell you enough about how much I've learnt this year.
This year was an absolute STRUGGLE!
The past year, I've been through so much and it was very unhealthy for me, but at the same it has helped me grow and become the person I am and want to be.
As a teenager, I obviously go through many different phases. Being a teenager is hard, let alone having school AND diet also be a huge factor in my life. Not only have I gone from middle school to high school, but I also switched schools, and it isn't easy to adapt quickly.
I was pressuring myself a lot this year, with trying to be healthy, workout, study, and going through a lot of hormonal changes, I've personally gone through a phase of *somewhat* depression. And because I was overwhelming myself, I entered a point where I just gave up on everything and didn't care about anything that I cared about so much when I started high school: I stopped studying, I would eat sooooo much junk everyday, and I would just go home almost everyday, CRYING my eyes out, and sometimes crying myself to sleep. I was so uncomfortable with everything that was happening and people began to realize. I would overthink so much and not know what to do, and it was so unhealthy for me. I just wanted to finish school as quick as possible. I was avoiding my best friends and didn't seek for anyones help. I felt so alone, so isolated, and just stuck in this state of mind that nothing's going to change, nothing's going to get better, and there's no point of life. This depression wasn't going away. My mom was the only person I could truly confront, and after a while, my mom decided to take me to a councilor and from there, my state of mind slowly started to change, and I was done with school and I felt so free.
My point is, always seek for help when you feel like you need it, and just know this
Change, is the only constant in life. Your life will continue to change. You can never be only happy or only sad. Just know all of it will change. Sometimes you will feel sad, and when you are, allow yourself to be. Sometimes you will feel happy, and just enjoy that. Live in that moment and just don't think of the past OR the future.
I am just really happy that I am currently in the state that I am in, and I've learnt so much this year and although it was hard, I am thankful for it. It is what allowed me to really GROW!
Hey guys! I wanted to talk to you about my diet and productivity experience. A little disclaimer: I know no one in the world should be forced to go on diets, to become “thinner” for society, but my purpose is to just live healthier and stay fit.
In April, I made a decision to start a healthy lifestyle, because I realized it’s important to maintain good health and not go too crazy with food. And ever since, I’ve been living healthier and living a better life than I ever did. It definitely changed me into a better person and made me feel better about myself.
I won’t lie, it was a tough experience. Sometimes I just stopped and ate junk food. And I realized that that’s normal. For almost a month I just stopped and didn’t have the motivation. I gained weight and felt like I did all that hard work of junk food resistance - haha - for nothing. But then a couple of weeks later I went back on my healthy routine.
That’s when I realized that sometimes you need to go down to get back up.
I was always a person known to be productive. And for this short period of time I just, didn’t feel like doing ANYTHING. But then I got back out there and I’m better than ever.
So if you’re having a hard time and don’t have the motivation of doing something, you should realize that sometimes you need to go down to get back up again, and to become better than ever.
Last year I went to Amman Design Week and I loved it!
So I decided to give it a try this year, and it was really nice. There were many different projects that were filled with creativity- and the best part about this is that this year they had students participate from all over Jordan, which i found really inspiring and I hope one day I could be a part of this. Here are some of the projects that there were:
Motivation. The key to everything. To achieve your goal you must first have the motivation.
Ive always tried and tried to start a healthy diet but I’d just end up convincing myself I don’t need one so I don’t have to cut all the junk and fatty foods. Either that or I see something like chocolate in front of me and just give up on the whole healthy diet.
But this time I was finally able to start a healthy diet.
The key is motivation: First, start by setting up a goal for yourself, then set up a plan for yourself and how you want to achieve this goal.
I made a plan and I made it colorful so I can feel motivated to follow it. I added in what my goal was and just how I’m going to achieve it.
One thing you should keep in mind is to not go too intense because that’s definitely not healthy.
It wouldn’t make sense to be a person that eats a lot of sugars and all of a sudden completely extract it out of your life, because that’s almost impossible and your obviously not going to be motivated to do it. It’s too hard to give up eating something that quick; it’s hard to adapt to it that quick.
Make a plan YOU KNOW you will follow. Start easy at first
Personally, since my diet is now LOW carbs and no sugar (except the good sugars like fruit), I didn’t start it that way. It started off being: have a chocolate bar once a week. Then, it became no sugar, and then I decided to minimize the amount of carbs I eat. I actually followed this since I was adapting to it easily and slowly.
By the way, at first you might not follow it and instead you may eat chocolate. But if you feel guilty after that is the first thing in your diet. Feeling Guilty. Feeling guilty about eating fatty foods, and overtime you will stop if you tell yourself to so that you don’t feel guilty. Another way is to actually tell yourself, you must take control of your body, don’t let your body take control of you.
So the first step in starting a healthy lifestyle is to set a plan. The second step is to track your progress. Take pictures to see how much your progressing, measure your weight every once in a while. Other than that, give yourself a little reflection at the end of every week to see how you are doing. Are you following the plan? Are you just convincing yourself you don’t need to be healthy?
Other than that, you must track your progress in a way that you must see what suits you best and add it to the plan.
For an example, I started out with writing “No dinner”. After a month or less I realized that I am having dinner and its way too hard for me to suddenly take it out of my life. So on my plan I would add “Have salad for Dinner” or something like this. So that way you’re not too intense with it.
Next step is when you see something yummy infront of you but it’s full of sugar, try to top yourself from eating it. Because maybe you tell yourself that you want to eat only one bite, but that’s just going to lead you to eating more and more. This may sound contradicting to what I was saying about not being intense. But it’s not, it’s just sometimes you need to hold it in because trust me you will never be healthy if you keep doing this “One bite” thing. And take it from me, if you don’t eat it you will feel SO accomplished.
Next step is to get healthier alternatives. I realized that there are so many protein bars that taste just like chocolate but with so much less calories and sugar. And there are a lot of chips made from completely healthy ingredients. And there are so many recipes to make as alternatives to fatty foods such as oat cookies instead of chocolate chip ones. Sometimes I think to myself why people don’t eat these instead of chocolate since it just saves you from all those calories yet it tastes just as good.
So guys, the main point of all of this is to find motivation in any way possible because if you don’t have motivation, there’s really nothing else you can do to improve.
For an example see how much weight you lost or how much healthier you have become and it just makes you 1000 times more motivated.
Motivation is not only the key in diet, it’s for every single goal you want to achieve.
You also need to be real about it to go easy and slowly rather than being intense.
You also need commitment. Be committing to your diet.
So they’re three things:
Motivation. Rationalism. Commitment.
And hopefully you WILL reach your goal.
Make sure to check out this videos since I give recipes, more tips, and also show you guys my routine for being healthy (What i normally eat in a day).
At one point, I told myself I’m not happy with how I am taking care of my body. I am eating way too much junk food, not enough water, protein, vitamins, fiber, and GOOD fats. I am not giving my body the excerise it needs. And I began to realize that this is effecting my personality. I was always negative and not in the mood for life itself and I was always getting mad at the littlest things.
And at one point, I told myself STOP.
And I decided to become a healthier person. And so it began
May 1: I started by having my mom make a diet plan for me and began to follow it. This was the plan:
I continued my diet like this and for the first time I actually followed it. Let me tell you: It was not easy.
At this point I lost 3kgs (6.6 pounds)
After continuing this for a month, we came to Ramadan. (If you are not familiar with Ramadan it’s a 30 day holiday for Muslims in which we fast until the Maghreb Prayer -around 8 PM)
So I decided to start going with my Dad to the gym right before the Maghreb Prayer (6-7) and follow the normal diet plan.
On the first day of Gym it was very hard; I came back home absolutely exhausted, dizzy, and had no energy at all.
But I continued through the month and it became easier.
However, since it is Ramadan it’s harder to keep up with diet since we don’t eat or drink anything for a long time so I kind of messed up my diet.
Through Ramadan, I became guilty for literally eating ANYTHING! I would feel guilty for not starving myself. It was as if I became too wrapped up on the diet.
After Ramadan I lost 1kg only (2.2 pounds)
Then my family and I travelled to Georgia (Travel Diary on the Travel Page)
For the first couple of days I tried not eating any fatty foods as much as I could, and it worked!
But for the last 2 days I couldn’t handle it anymore so I ate a bit of sugary foods. But simultaneously I talked to my friend about his No carb diet, which motivated me to begin a LOW- carb diet once I came back to Jordan.
July 4: I began my low-carb diet, which was similar to my previous diets but barely any carbs (only for breakfast and a bit for lunch) and either having a salad for dinner or having no dinner.
The guiltiness of anything I eat minimized, but sometimes I would feel guilty if I ate too much, and thats good since I can know how to control myself more.
Anyways, I continued this diet for a month non-stop until this day (July 30) and it’s been going great.
I also made a workout schedule for myself so I’ve been working out everyday for 2 weeks, and going 3 times to the gym. So after all of this I learnt how to get to something without stopping.
But after today, I am pretty much a health freak. I buy no added sugar- bars and milks, I workout everyday, I make something healthy for breakfast everyday. It’s pretty crazy.
But after all this I realized I have became a happier person and I am so happy that I moved out of the Junk lifestyle. Because when I was there, I felt trapped! And now I feel free and happy and I don’t want to ever go back to this state.
And I am Proud of myself!
I hope you enjoyed my diet story, and stay tuned since I will be giving you guys a couple of steps to knowing the key of actually being committed to the diet. And don’t forget to watch the “What I eat in a day” video that is going up on my youtube channel soon!